I also have adhd , and i am also a psychology student , and i love this so much!! Its so well written and so real .
I love themmm so muchhhhh !!! The chemistry the yearning the obsession!!!!! And the power dynamics!!! Kskskskskskskksksksksks love it
As a dark romance story , ut is definitely well written and very twosted and dark and deeply psychological. As a psychology major - the dymanics and the personality pf the characters , and the attachment and bonding, are very well written and very interesting.
But as a reader who thought was reading romance, i fell it a guilty trap of enjoying reading a very toxic relationship With incest and manipulation and rape ( in the initial chapters , making him obey with a snap - is manipulative and rape ) and ummm so i do have very mixed feelings with this story . Its not that its not well written , but it is also a relationship build on manipulation and toxicity, and the ML needs therapy!!! Both of them does , but the ML still doesnt feel actually free , idk just my opinion.
I wish there was make supporting story about the MC’s childhood, to backup his inability to differentiate between abuse and play and craving for more pain , even though he was getting badly sick or hurt .
I dont know , but while reading the whole story , i was always confused about why the bottom’s kink was so hardcore cnc . Usually people craving from this crazy level cnc and unable to differentiate between abuse and play , roots from childhood abuse or childhood sa . But i dont think he had that form of any childhood. But still he developed this characteristic, which was kind of weird. If story like this was mentioned as a background story for how the MC developed his personality, or his urges and wishes and these issues ; then maybe psychologically it was make more sense , and would contribute to the full character development. Bcz from the first chapter only , him calling that staker and rapist guy - had raped him , yet in the internal monologue it was written as if he enjoyed the sex - was very cnc , yet , i did not understand why he had to go to that extent to have a kinky cnc sex - when it was cnc for him , but rape from the staler’s side . That urge or desire, cannot just develop on his own, if there was any reason of childhood trauma related, it wouldve made more sense of why he craved for so much intense torture during sex - when even the ML got scared .
yes.,,, when it was mentioned both of mcs parents have religious occupations i imagined that he went through severe punishment thats typical in more rough religious households(like spanking, locked in room, etc) but his parents turned out to be very loving… i wonder why he started out this way but its easy to understand why he kept seeking it out..