This story feels like its sucking me in and I want to look away but I can't. At first I really liked it and the mystery and sexual tension was juicy. But now its kind of taken a dark turn and I like it... but I kind of don't. The main character is becoming twisted and choosing to be ignorant to his lifestyle that is increasingly toxic on a downward spiral... and the love interest feels maybe.. almost one dimensional? He's the type of character I dont really know what he's thinking, its very irritating. Maybe I am impatient though, I feel like everything will unravel and explain itself but if it doesn't tell the story properly, its going to be very unsatisfying...
Tfw you realize Satoshi has a sensitive gag reflex because he purged in high school to get skinnier when he used to be fat.. his insecurities about his body really showed in chapter nine when he didn't want to show his body at all during sex, it really touched me cause i can relate. Ma-kun handled the situation well, he didn't judge or be pushy and respected Satoshi very well, it gives me hope that I can find a partner like that too. It goes to show that just because someone has lost weight doesn't mean that they magically have the self esteem to come with it.
Fuck those bullies that made fun of him just for being fat, he has an eating disorder and body dysmorphia because of that. Weight is not something all of us can control, whether it be because of depression, school, work, or just cause you have a low metabolism.. the possibilities really are endless. The only body you should be concerned about is your own. Stop ruining other peoples lives just because they look different. Let people exist.
*sees author's other work*
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