personally, i find it frustrating when people say garam needed to hoe around during his breakup because i feel like that’s such a misinterpretation of his character. from the very beginning, garam has never struck me as the type of person to sleep around. yes, he has sexual desires, but both with youngjo and heejae, he’s always been a one love at a time type of person. i don’t think being single automatically means he needs to have meaningless sex with other people, especially when that’s never really been the way he approaches love and intimacy. if anything, i would’ve preferred to see him continue playing the piano, further develop his own sound, and meet more people who genuinely treasured him, just like maria, walter, eva, etc. i wanted to see him build a life and find fulfillment outside of heejae, but at the same time, i think his current outcome makes sense considering how emotionally and physically dependent he was on him. leaving heejae was never going to undo that dependency overnight, and i think that’s an important part of garam’s character and his journey.
then again, i do understand the frustration of seeing four years of his youth seemingly go to waste while he was depressed and listless. but isn’t that part of his journey, learning to overcome himself and rebuild his life after realizing just how much of himself he had dedicated to heejae and music? he had to walk away from everything he thought he loved and built his life around, and i feel like four years is hardly anything in the grand scheme of things, especially when he had no one to truly rely on emotionally. healing from that kind of dependency takes time, and i think expecting him to just move on immediately and make up for those lost years misses the point of what he’s going through.
ugh garam my little poopa
Moreover sleeping with other people meaninglessly will never fill the empty void inside him. in fact, it might only lead to self harm since we know how genuine his love is for heejae so doing it with other people would undeniably hurt- or he might end up meeting trashy people that hurts him which he accepts (cus he's a masochist and ends up using sex as an escape/distraction from painful memories) and it will become a self-destructive habit.
i agree with you to some extent, but i don’t think garam was ever inherently a masochist. i think he was conditioned into liking it rough because that was the kind of intimacy heejae had accustomed him to, and he came to associate it with the only kind of love heejae was capable of giving him. because if you think about that one chapter where heejae treated him gently, garam was visibly uncomfortable with it at first, but he undeniably ended up enjoying it more than when heejae was rough with him.
I didn't mean to say that he was inherently masochistic, I interpreted it as heejae's rough treatment might have awoken something in him (aka his masochistic tendencies) that he didn't realize before. So I don't think its far fetched to say that his masochistic tendencies might reoccur when he has another sexual encounter. also a lot of the times ive read, characters would use physical pain as a way to mask their emotional pain (which i think is self destructive)
Theres no misinterpretation of character going on here lmao most people are just saying random thoughtless jokey stuff youre the one who make it more complicated that it supposed to be and hes already at rock bottom, an alcoholic with black lung, doing things that wont fill the void inside him too just like you said so i promise you, getting fucked in the ass during one night stands isnt going to be a big deal or a mischaracterization
I have no problem with people having fun and making jokes this was just my personal opinion, which is why I said personally in the first place. but what’s wrong with making it more complicated when the story itself already deals with such heavy themes? sure, maybe a one night stand isn’t a big deal to you personally, but I’m talking about it from the perspective of the manhwa and what it means in the context of his character. just because he’s already at rock bottom and engaging in self destructive behaviour doesn’t mean every action he takes is automatically insignificant to his character.
It's funny how people think being young means to be a whore, garam can get to know others have a social life instead of going into sleeping with any random guy like STD exist nobody should be doing any of that tbh , but yah he should enjoy and travel have peace of mind cuz sleeping with people is never a good option
I feel like garam keeps trying to see the good in everyone and overlooking their flaws because acknowledging them would also mean having to confront the way heejae has treated him and everyone else. and we all know heejae is the worst out of all of them
has anyone else read chp 205 because wow
is it sad?
Apparently the rift between Garam and Heejae grew. Well I don't think it's Heejae but Garam since he's sort of isolating himself from Heejae after the incident.
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atm, garam is ignoring heejae whenever they’re alone together, but they’re still staying in the same room since they’re in a hotel. at the start of the chapter, garam talks to heejae’s piano teacher (the old woman), and she immediately clocks that garam and heejae are together. she says it’s obvious from the way they look at each other, and she tells garam that heejae has changed. garam thinks so too, but he says he doesn’t know why and that he still wants more from him (completely valid, btw). then the teacher has a whole talk with heejae about the story of orpehus and eurydice (full circle moment). she explains how orpehus had one job: not to look back and to keep moving forward so he could be with eurydice.but he eventually looked back because he was overcome with doubt and the fear of losing her forever. she relates that to heejae and tells him that if he wants their relationship to work out, he can’t keep looking back at his old habits. then heejae has his usual crash out with the orchestra, followed by a whole internal monologue about how he’s always expressed his feelings through his music, and how what garam is asking from him is something too human for him. but then I’m assuming he has some kind of epiphany. after his performance is over, he doesn’t get up from his chair, and I don’t really know how to describe what happens next because you need to see the panels to understand it. I’d say heejae goes through some kind of metamorphosis. I’m hoping it means he’s finally accepting that he’s human too, and that he can actually show garam that he loves him. this was one of my favourite chapters, so so so good omg. sorry for the lengthy paragraph
I had a good night sleep after reading it.
It's so beautiful. I mean compare to chapter 204.
A week is too long i need chapter 206 immediately. But, I'm also scared we're close to ending
nah garams straight up playing in comptons face now LMFAO
days since heejae last threw shit around: 0
heejae happy moments compilation: 5 seconds
LMAOOOO
I started rereading the manhwa because I wanted to download the chapters to read offline during my flight, but I got so sucked back into the story that I completely forgot to download anything and ended up binge reading all the way to the latest chapters
I feel like people oversimplify this whole manager situation. a lot of people seem to interpret it as heejae emotionally cheating on garam whenever his manager appears during their intimate moments. but this manhwa has always been about emotional growth and self reflection. heejae has always struggled with vulnerability, only confronting his emotions after letting garam into his heart. his late manager isn’t there because heejae loves him romantically, he represents heejae’s biggest regret. he never got the chance to apologise or make things right before his manager died, so hes still carrying unresolved guilt and grief. now with garam, hes terrified of repeating those same mistakes and being abandoned all over again. those memories aren’t a sign that he’s choosing his manager over garam they’re a manifestation of his guilt, regret, and fear of losing someone he finally allowed himself to love.
thank you for saying this, this is exactly what i have been thinking. this story has a lot of complex emotions and situations involved that i think are sometimes misinterpreted.
The way you explained,it is very beautiful
Yeah ppl hating on manager and heejae but they dont understand the deeper meaning
Well saiddddd
im crine we went straight to 133, maybe it’s for the better
Sameee I've been just refreshing since 2h ago
he's so creepy i hate him
downvoted accidental,y