vibes's Things

or if there is just give a cw idm

i need to steal one because i have none? only reading but i need something else. i used to free solo but i'm on a break because i kept thinking i should let go ha ha ha

not the best place to put this but maybe it is? if anyone else has gone through this and has some tips that might be helpful can you share? even dm if this is too public.

i'm falling down a hole of only being able to consume content with violence. anything else doesn't (for lack of a better word) stimulate me. it bores me quickly and i have to move on. i understand it's not healthy nor is it something i should actively look for (the way i have been, especially recently).

anything with real people doesn't interest me at all so i'm only consuming manhwa/manga/manhua and novels, but there's a fear deep inside whispering a "for now", so really i don't want to go deeper into this hole because if i do i know the way back out will be more difficult. but i don't know how to stop. the urge to consume these contents becomes all consuming at times that it makes it hard, sometimes close to impossible, to focus on anything else until i scroll through violent scenes in a manhwa, i'll liken it to taking a hit, then once i do i'm temporarily sated.

tips welcome. idk. i feel very fucked and lost.

i want to read some dark yaoi but i’ve read a good chunk so new are hard to find. someone rec me a few somethings? especially lesser known ones.
cws are nice so i can choose which one to read.

if you want to shit talk or give suggestions (to read or to stay away)?