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i have a problem. unsure how to stop. call me an addict? seems apt.
not the best place to put this but maybe it is? if anyone else has gone through this and has some tips that might be helpful can you share? even dm if this is too public.
i'm falling down a hole of only being able to consume content with violence. anything else doesn't (for lack of a better word) stimulate me. it bores me quickly and i have to move on. i understand it's not healthy nor is it something i should actively look for (the way i have been, especially recently).
anything with real people doesn't interest me at all so i'm only consuming manhwa/manga/manhua and novels, but there's a fear deep inside whispering a "for now", so really i don't want to go deeper into this hole because if i do i know the way back out will be more difficult. but i don't know how to stop. the urge to consume these contents becomes all consuming at times that it makes it hard, sometimes close to impossible, to focus on anything else until i scroll through violent scenes in a manhwa, i'll liken it to taking a hit, then once i do i'm temporarily sated.
there is always explanation for any phenomenon. explanation of yours is not "because you are fucked up" but more probably is "because you THINK you are fucked up". how is your self-esteem? do you feel depressed, numb?
what you really need is compassion for yourself, I don't know what terrible things happened to you, but consuming violence is sort o...... reply
You need to stop reading for a good while. The problem is that you got used to the violence so your brain always need more stimulation. It's not healthy at all mental health wise
Like any addiction you need to stop engaging with any violent content and this is the hardest part. Don't hesitate to go to a therapist if you can even for just one sessio...... 1 reply
don't be too hard on yourself, your off to a good start by realizing its happening, most people won't bec "its fiction". i went through something similar. heres my tips
to start don't try to stop altogether at once, youll just keep thinking about it, Luckly it's just reading fiction for now so wing yourself off by reading a little not alot. if pos...... 1 reply
Your brain is craving stimulation, dopamine. The "fucked up" things feed your craving for adrenaline. You are addicted to the escapism rather than the meaning of the violent content itself. At the start, you were stimulated by more normal stuff until this stopped working and you started searching and reading for more dark things, because darker thi...... reply
Would It be alright to ask you what kind of violence stimulates you ?
Because I'm kinda a sucker for violent stories too, with gore, deaths and blood etc. But that doesn't mean I feel violent towards others. Maybe I could relate or orient you to other things if I knew what kind of violence attracts you ?
Feel free to answer or not if you want 1 reply
