Onion

Oh my GOD redhead is such an emotionally constipated asshole. Like I’m gonna cry if he’s endgame. He’s always yelling at her cuz she’s too nice and it makes him feel guilty for his actions? It’s so backwards he has like zero introspection. And he’s just also kindof dumb? Like a terrible strategist. He never takes a middle ground in anything, always out here making enemies and not thinking about consequences. Even when he decides he’s been wrong he then tries to atone in the stupidest ways possible which somehow still involve lots of yelling at the MC for nothing ToT. The man is literally living his life as a 24/7 ADULT TEMPER TANTRUM.

Not hot.

Also he’s like “omg u make me feel emotions” but, like aside from the one date where he literally abandoned her in a crowd he never has any proper interactions where they bond over anything. It’s always just him being shitty to her then feeling guilty. He ain’t in love with her hes just mad guilty at himself for acting shitty and putting her on a pedestal.

ALSO THAT FESTIVAL DATE THO- this guy won’t let her walk in her own garden without guards but he’lol leave her, a blind woman, WHO SPECIFICALLY HIM NOT TO RUN OFF in the middle of a busy festival. Like seriously, like the only time she’s ever asked him not to do a thing he ignores her and runs off anyways. And poor MC who’s never been listened to in her entire life is like “yup. This is normal” cuz it is to her. Heartbreaking.

Seriously people are mad at the MC for being a pushover but, in her defense, if at any point in her childhood she had gotten mad at people for treating her badly, the treatment would probably just get worse. She probably learned from an early age, anger was literally not an option, and neither was asking for help. It’s literally a learned defense mechanism. Plus, her worldview ain’t entirely wrong. Her asking for help or saying no to people even as an adult has not been met with much success. while redhead gets mad at her all the time for being too nice, he literally acknowledges in like ch17-ish that if she had actually asked for anything back fen or gotten mad about her treatment HE WOULD HAVE JUST CALLED HER SELFISH. Or even now in this latest chapter (61) she was like “please don’t go I’m worried ur gonna die” and he replied “fuck u bitch this is somehow your fault and I’m going anyways.” Like if even that politely worded request is met with so much negativity how on earth is the MC supposed to feel like actually expressing any real anger is an option?

ALSO ON THE TOPIC OF HER ALWAYS SACRIFICING HERSELF :
And the few people that were nice to her she feels incredibly guilty over causing the deaths of. (Like not only did she as a CHILD have that kind of guilt and trauma put on her, the adults in her life DID NOT COMFORT HER or tell her it wasn’t her fault. NO. The told her actually your right, this is absolutely your fault and we are terrified you’ll hurt us too.) SO OF COURSE SHE HAS NO SELF ESTEEM AND CONSTANTLY IS TRYING TO ATONE FOR SHIT THATS BOT HER FAULT. What a lifelong baggage of guilt to carry around.
She literally suicidal. She feels her life has no value and makes things worse for the people around her. She feels like the world is better off without her and maybe deserves to die. By that logic if her is gonna get thrown away anyways she might as well help someone else out in the process by sacrificing herself.

??? I am so confused. I did not think it was illegal to kiss a man in Korea?? Did a quick google and it seems like homosexual acivity is legal in South Korea, though there is not much protection for the LGBT community from discriminatory hiring and housing practices. Is this some alternate universe shit or am I just sorely misinformed? Very confused by bloodie’s logic.

Anybody know more about this?