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His obsession with being seen as normal and not to let the MC to see his behaviors as not normal. Due to society viewing heterosexual relationships as the normal standard it has twisted the Semes view on homosexuality.
The fear of slipping and loosing MC is what drives him to keep the "normal" persona. He doesn't understand how he hurt tha MC or that there are different types of normal. He was taught he had to be normal due to the abnormalities in his personality. Many cultures still view homosexuality as abnormal.
He doesn't feel hatred or disgusted by them, because he doesnt feel. He's just a mirror reflecting back what he believes is expected of him by those around him.