when I was 11-14, I didn't really know anything about these kinds of things. then one day, my one of my mother's friend told me to go with him so I did. he touched me all over and lick me all over too, he also put his thing on me and it really hurt like hell. I didn't know then that it was sex, he told me to keep it a secret and I did, now that I think about it. I was pretty stupid back then, after that everytime he visits our house he would touch me and things if my parents aren't looking. he died when I was like 17 because of health and until now my parents doesn't know I had been sexually abused. same thing also happened when I was 18 on the bus, I cried and pleaded him to stop and he threatened me that every people in the bus would know, worst thing was the "kondoktor" the one who collects money and shit, knew but did nothing, I as soon as the bus stopped I hurriedly escaped went outside the bus after making sure that the bus was already far, I started breaking down and crying I didn't care if the people were staring at me. i cried to the fact I don't even have money to go home anymore. thankfully a kind lady treated me with the bus fee going home. when my parents knew what happened on the bus they called me stupid for not fighting back.
Right now, I am currently twenty years old. I still find me touching myself sometimes, then crying afterwards. I also had many scars due to self harm.
I also think that, the reason I am addicted to these kinds of genre and yaoi itself was because of my past experiences, but maybe I am just your average fudanshi.
I'm so sorry that you had to go through something so terrible. I would advise you to seek help if it's still traumatizing. And remember not to stay silent against such DBs. If someone is harassing you on the bus, on the road at home, anywhere, don't stay silent. You don't want anyone else to be their victim. I wish you happiness
Right now, I am currently twenty years old. I still find me touching myself sometimes, then crying afterwards. I also had many scars due to self harm. I also think that, the reason I am addicted to these kinds ... Fred
First of all, I am so sorry for your experience and everyone around you should take this matter more seriously. Sexual assaults are no joke and if you still have trauma or PTSDs, you should seek help from the professional therapists, not consulting with your family or friends who dont understand your pain. I really have no words to describe your pain when experiencing that. Please be strong and seek help when you really need one. And from the bottom of my heart, I wish eventually you will find someone who can understand and is willing to listen to your problems.
thank you for sharing your story, i'm so sorry this happened to you. your parents telling you you should've fought back - please do not listen to them. it's absolutely not your fault. please also seek help if you're able to.
First of all, I am so sorry for your experience and everyone around you should take this matter more seriously. Sexual assaults are no joke and if you still have trauma or PTSDs, you should seek help from the p... Tho
well thank you for being concerned, honestly I really don't mind it that much now. though I still find myself having breakdowns and self harming, I now have few friends who new my struggle. they cried for me, and supported me and was there for me when I experience breakdown. they're good friends though they're a little bit overprotective. Even in this time of pandemic, they still go out of there way to contact me from time to time
thank you guys for being concerned, honestly I really don't mind it that much now. though I still find myself having breakdowns and self harming, I now have few friends who new my struggle. they cried for me, and supported me and was there for me when I experience breakdown. they're good friends though they're a little bit overprotective. Even in this time of pandemic, they still go out of there way to contact me from time to time
Right now, I am currently twenty years old. I still find me touching myself sometimes, then crying afterwards. I also had many scars due to self harm. I also think that, the reason I am addicted to these kinds ... Fred
I had some bad memories of my past too, and I also think why into this type of genre myself. I understand you
when I was 11-14, I didn't really know anything about these kinds of things. then one day, my one of my mother's friend told me to go with him so I did. he touched me all over and lick me all over too, he also put his thing on me and it really hurt like hell. I didn't know then that it was sex, he told me to keep it a secret and I did, now that I think about it. I was pretty stupid back then, after that everytime he visits our house he would touch me and things if my parents aren't looking. he died when I was like 17 because of health and until now my parents doesn't know I had been sexually abused. same thing also happened when I was 18 on the bus, I cried and pleaded him to stop and he threatened me that every people in the bus would know, worst thing was the "kondoktor" the one who collects money and shit, knew but did nothing, I as soon as the bus stopped I hurriedly escaped went outside the bus after making sure that the bus was already far, I started breaking down and crying I didn't care if the people were staring at me. i cried to the fact I don't even have money to go home anymore. thankfully a kind lady treated me with the bus fee going home. when my parents knew what happened on the bus they called me stupid for not fighting back.
Right now, I am currently twenty years old. I still find me touching myself sometimes, then crying afterwards. I also had many scars due to self harm.
I also think that, the reason I am addicted to these kinds of genre and yaoi itself was because of my past experiences, but maybe I am just your average fudanshi.
I'm so sorry that you had to go through something so terrible. I would advise you to seek help if it's still traumatizing. And remember not to stay silent against such DBs. If someone is harassing you on the bus, on the road at home, anywhere, don't stay silent. You don't want anyone else to be their victim. I wish you happiness
First of all, I am so sorry for your experience and everyone around you should take this matter more seriously. Sexual assaults are no joke and if you still have trauma or PTSDs, you should seek help from the professional therapists, not consulting with your family or friends who dont understand your pain. I really have no words to describe your pain when experiencing that. Please be strong and seek help when you really need one. And from the bottom of my heart, I wish eventually you will find someone who can understand and is willing to listen to your problems.
thank you for sharing your story, i'm so sorry this happened to you. your parents telling you you should've fought back - please do not listen to them. it's absolutely not your fault. please also seek help if you're able to.
well thank you for being concerned, honestly I really don't mind it that much now. though I still find myself having breakdowns and self harming, I now have few friends who new my struggle. they cried for me, and supported me and was there for me when I experience breakdown. they're good friends though they're a little bit overprotective. Even in this time of pandemic, they still go out of there way to contact me from time to time
thank you guys for being concerned, honestly I really don't mind it that much now. though I still find myself having breakdowns and self harming, I now have few friends who new my struggle. they cried for me, and supported me and was there for me when I experience breakdown. they're good friends though they're a little bit overprotective. Even in this time of pandemic, they still go out of there way to contact me from time to time
omg im so sorry that this shit happend to you but im happy you found friends that are there for you. Wish you all the best.
I had some bad memories of my past too, and I also think why into this type of genre myself. I understand you