I've been in the same situation before. It was too toxic. My partner drained me emotionally and mentally. Feels like i was drowning without him and when I'm with him I could lift my head just above my lips barely able to breath. I thought his crumbs were delicacies.
In the end, it was me who saved myself. It was myself that i needed to love not him. I left him. He was a mess for a year without me but he found someone else. I am now single for 8 yrs. I still love him. And my heart still ache with the though of him. I still crave his touch and yearn for him. But i am in a much more better place than when i was with him. I am single by choice. I am too traumatized with relationships that I don't entertain suitors at all.
I read this yaoi a long time ago and I've been looking for it everywhere but I don't remember the title and it sucks cuz its always at the back of my mind.
The uke likes
He posts pictures of his feet wearing different heels.... please I forgot the rest. Can someone help me find it???
welp, I found it haha. Here you go http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/why_did_men_stop_wearing_high_heels/
He was sick when he found him. He used his body for a whole week and didn't even give him something to cover himself up. The whole place look like its marbled. It would be so cold and putting his food by the floor? Even a whore and a dog is treated better by their owners than him. I feel so bad and angry. If you love him so much why treat him so poorly? It's such an ick and no matter how much I'd love someone, i can't imagine accepting to be treated so badly.