Where do I start..... I read this back in 2018, when it was actively updating. And in the beginning I had a perception that Taku was the person I was meant to root for. I had a severe case of second lead syndrome, because in my mind, Taku was the obvious answer I didn't understand why Haesoo wanted to be in a toxic relationship and why he couldn'tlet ir go. It didn't make sense to me with each upload.I hated the ending, and I hated the story. It felt like it was rewarding bad behavior. Rather than it being a story of overcoming a toxic relationship it felt like it promoted staying in a toxic relationship.
But after eight years, I finally didn't feel as much resentment, and I decided to give it another read. I didn't feel as much hatred as I did towards Joowon, I read this understanding what was going to happen, but trried to remain as unbiased as possible. And while I was reading, I realized so many things that I missed when I was younger. Joowon was always going to be the answer, and I don't know why I wasn't able to capture that back then. I wasn't able to understand how complex the relationship and the feelings that they had towards each other were. I still hate the pseudoincest dynamic.And I am not for step brothers being with each other. But I think you would be watering down what the relationship ultimately is. It is so much more than just that. And in a weird way Joowon became an realistic character. He acted out was because of fear and because of hurt. So many of the characters behaved because of fear and hurt, and I was able to understand that. Now my heart still cries for Taku because I think he's a really well written character.But I think that he wasn't necessarily just a tool to bring Haesoo and Joowon together, but this is also necessary for him to grow as a character. And Haesoo needed Taku to grow as a character as well. In a weird way, they all needed each other. In order to grow
Where do I start.....
I read this back in 2018, when it was actively updating. And in the beginning I had a perception that Taku was the person I was meant to root for. I had a severe case of second lead syndrome, because in my mind, Taku was the obvious answer I didn't understand why Haesoo wanted to be in a toxic relationship and why he couldn'tlet ir go. It didn't make sense to me with each upload.I hated the ending, and I hated the story. It felt like it was rewarding bad behavior. Rather than it being a story of overcoming a toxic relationship it felt like it promoted staying in a toxic relationship.
But after eight years, I finally didn't feel as much resentment, and I decided to give it another read. I didn't feel as much hatred as I did towards Joowon, I read this understanding what was going to happen, but trried to remain as unbiased as possible. And while I was reading, I realized so many things that I missed when I was younger. Joowon was always going to be the answer, and I don't know why I wasn't able to capture that back then. I wasn't able to understand how complex the relationship and the feelings that they had towards each other were. I still hate the pseudoincest dynamic.And I am not for step brothers being with each other. But I think you would be watering down what the relationship ultimately is. It is so much more than just that. And in a weird way Joowon became an realistic character. He acted out was because of fear and because of hurt. So many of the characters behaved because of fear and hurt, and I was able to understand that. Now my heart still cries for Taku because I think he's a really well written character.But I think that he wasn't necessarily just a tool to bring Haesoo and Joowon together, but this is also necessary for him to grow as a character. And Haesoo needed Taku to grow as a character as well. In a weird way, they all needed each other. In order to grow