like for the most part it's heehee haha memes and BL jokes and him being goofy to ease tension. because that's how yoojin is, ever the older brother. then you suddenly see him having nightmares, panic attacks, going off the deep end the next minute over seemingly irrational fears, or relaying a messed up upbringing like it was the most normal thing in the world.
adrissa is starting to remind me of that one spoiled toxic friend who used to be in a dysfunctional relationship with some jobless, spineless, cheating mfer that regularly abuses her & will not shut up about how sad but dedicated she is to her man & ignores literally everyone in her life telling her 'girl you got no right to bitch abt not being loved, you create your own problems'
and when the ahole breaks up with her she miraculously ends up dating a man who is exactly her type in every way without the jobless, spineless, cheating, abusive traits... so she goes to complain about how he's "different" and how she still can't get over her POS ex.
like at this point? girl, you're not in love with the og emperor, you're obsessed with the idea of BEING obsessed. obsessed with the security of being perceived as the pursuer, the dedicated one, the one who waits. because if you really do get involved with a man who loves you back, you actually have to risk something real.
the new emperor is another mess, but his feelings seems less immature and one-dimensional because he actually experienced grief for several years.
it cracks me up every time a new old guy is introduced & it's the same old guy with glasses or a new hairstyle. the artist is afflicted with a unique variant of same face syndrome- most artists do this with young attractive characters but this one does it with old salary men
you can tell the plot's good af tho bc a lot of readers, me included are sticking with it despite the art
it's interesting how oedipal mother cases in history are often rooted in a woman's lack of agency during those times. after giving birth to a son they hinge all their self worth on them and act territorial, seeing other women as the enemy that exist to steal the authority they gained via their male child instead of the patriarchal system that robbed them of their personhood. which kinda makes sense for this character.
it's also why in the present you see normal parents call themselves 'mom' while some women caught up in conservative social circles & tradwife lifestyles like to label themselves 'boy moms' to emphasize how they integrate their child's gender into their own identity.









it's so delicious omffffggg
now THIS is how you make a decent regret/chasing arc because even the makeup sex scene reflects the changes in their characters