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You’re always in my memories!Lee Taegun is a S-Class Esper who refuses to be guided due to tra...
9/10 Probably the best depiction of avoidant attachment from ptsd ive ever seen in yaoi. There were some extremely poignant moments in there where I found myself thinking that MC had found the exact words I'd use to describe some of the unbearably complex and paradoxical emotions that exist within his otherwise cold actions. His self-awareness as to what made him unloveable and the guilt he felt over such things felt so real, because if the author were to simply hide more of his emotions from the story, he would GENUINELY look like an asshole, and well. Such is truly the experience of having avoidant attachments.
I could already imagine how he'd be flamed online by people who've experienced dating someone like him.
The parts of his personality of which he only shows within the backlash state also felt extremely cathartic to witness, because it's definitely a side that's not often fully explored with avoidant characters. Specifically, the way in which he searches for a reason to doubt ML, to see his 'true side'. It manifests as fearless sexual advances which would otherwise go against what it means to 'avoid' someone, and I feel like it's a form of self-sabotage that is sometimes so integral into making the trauma feel realistic - that objectification of self which once felt so awful, becoming what makes you feel control of situation.
I'm also really glad for how long it took for him to come to terms with his emotions, every bit of progress, every relapse, felt so real to witness - you could really feel the helplessness of what the irrationality of trauma entails, and that emotional journey was extremely captivating to read.
Overall, an extremely solid story and wonderful read. I guess my only real dissatisfaction with it comes from the fact that the worldbuilding, the characters, and the plot devices are all very intentional and not fleshed out beyond the point of being useful to the story, so the scope feels very contained and like just a small window into the world that could have had a bit more potential in itself.