Melon

I’m looking for a story to completely destroy my mood.

Something that after finishing you’ve got the feeling of laying in a dark room in a complete, ‘Everything is pointless,’ state of never moving kinda thing.

I’m pretty chill with everything, the more soul crushingly dark and existentially dreadful the better. (づ￣ ³￣)づ

Some stories that had the same vibe we’re:
‘Interview with a Murderer’
‘Banana Fish’
‘Caste Heaven’
‘Antique Bakery’
‘Blood Bank’

But I don’t really want to reread anything so, anyone got an evil messed up story out there? (⌒▽⌒)

Honestly. . . I’ve no hope that I’ll ever be able to find these three BL/Yaoi mangas/mahnwas, but figured I’d see if maybe. Just maybe. There’s a chance one of you guys might recognise it.

First one lost: The penguin sex scene

I just remember this one scene. It’s a college story, a hyperactive happy go-lucky Uke and a tsundere Seme with long hair tied in a ponytail. They start dating, Uke is nervous because Seme hasn’t you know. . Jumped him. . They eventually talk it out and Seme just doesn’t have a high sex drive- But wait, Uke forgot he wanted to watch this one penguin documentary! He puts it on, the penguins frick, and somehow it gets the Seme excited.

Second one lost: A single quote

This one was more generic, I’m pretty sure it was a childhood friends/neighbours set up. One of them was being abused by his dad but only when the guy got drunk, and it wasn’t hardcore physical abuse, but it wasn’t great either. He still took care of his dad since their mom either died or left, anyways, there’s this one scene where it’s in his perspective (the main story bit isn’t in his perspective), he’s walking down the road and he just says, “Just laugh it off and send it packing,” and that’s all I got with that one.

Third and final story lost: The Mahnwa no one remembers

I swear. This. Existed. I’ve asked this one before but no one seems to know it. I only remember the first chapter because I think at the time, there was only 1 chapter. It’s a college set up, this black haired guy has nightmares of being fricked by a monster like dude in weird situations. When he goes to university he sees the guy in his dreams there. He’s the classic blond popular dude.
So nearing the end it clips to blond guy’s point of view and he’s a.. Dream vampire? He looks around in the halls at everyone and sees this whole percentage bar thing of ‘Dream chance,’ and, ‘Nightmare chance.’ Our tired quiet black haired character has a 100% chance on both and the blondie looks at him and says, ‘This’ll be interesting.’

Anyway this was long- I don’t have any hope that anyone will get these cause I’ve been looking for the two mangas for years and’ve had absolutely no luck.
Thanks anyways for reading my long friggen post though!