Ok I have no one to talk to about this irl so im going to let all my thoughts out here
So from my understanding, current Allen is parts: i) og soldier Allen, met nea on the verge of death and agreed to be host in exchange for a wish (unknown) ii) Nea (memories that make up nea) iii) Part of previous Lavi’s soul (silver hair*) iv) our Allen (at least his memories from when he was spit out of helix of life and being sold to the circus to 17 years later)
*Allens hair became white due to previous lavi’s intervention in order to protect Allen. (Ch.255)
Apocryphos goal: wants to feed Allen to the heart because of his immense “helix of life energy”. In order to hasten the resurrection of the heart (i am unsure what he wants to do with it)
The way I see it (for the sake of my mental sanity) its not that the Allen we know is completely disappearing or being wiped out, but rather regaining his true identity, in addition to the memories of the past 17/18 years with the order and all. Allen’s always had a messed up sense of identity- when he was a child (Red) he was upset about not having any memories before being sold to the circus and not even remembering his own name. After mana 'died', he completely adopted Mana’s personality and mannerisms and now has trouble knowing who he himself really is, which is why he so easily believed (but was unsettled) that he’s been remade by Apocryphos. Because deep down he’s always known that something was off. And from what we’ve seen of ‘og’ Allen, he seems pretty similar to the Allen we know, so it’s not like he’s becoming a different person entirely. At least I hope. That is if Nea does not fully take over. Maybe even if Nea takes over, Allen will still be there after Nea fulfills his goal. Or maybe im just being delusional bc I refuse to believe that the Allen we know is gone T-T Side note, I am also curious about what og Allen’s wish was, if it was already fulfilled before Allen was remade or it is currently being fulfilled, or hasn’t been yet. I also really wanna see another Kanda/Allen reunion before anything crazy happens but I doubt that will happen considering their last goodbye ╥﹏╥ Anyways, it is crazy how everything is coming together in the last few chapters and I really hope we get to see this story to its end, even though I will be very sad (⌒▽⌒)
Allen (MC) slowly changed into someone I don’t even recognize anymore. He’s not Nea, not that Bookman who literally sacrificed his life to save the host Allen, and not even the host Allen himself. All those memories, identities, and voices tangled inside him are slowly reshaping who he is, until it feels like he’s becoming someone entirely different, or maybe someone lost in between.
I have watch the anime 10 years ago and just happen to start read the manga last few days. For me it's only 10 years wait to found out that Cross still alive but for the manga reader... 15-16 years of waiting? Holy shit
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Knew it for years that cross wasn't dead
Ok I have no one to talk to about this irl so im going to let all my thoughts out here
So from my understanding, current Allen is parts:
i) og soldier Allen, met nea on the verge of death and agreed to be host in exchange for a wish (unknown)
ii) Nea (memories that make up nea)
iii) Part of previous Lavi’s soul (silver hair*)
iv) our Allen (at least his memories from when he was spit out of helix of life and being sold to the circus to 17 years later)
*Allens hair became white due to previous lavi’s intervention in order to protect Allen. (Ch.255)
Apocryphos goal: wants to feed Allen to the heart because of his immense “helix of life energy”. In order to hasten the resurrection of the heart (i am unsure what he wants to do with it)
The way I see it (for the sake of my mental sanity) its not that the Allen we know is completely disappearing or being wiped out, but rather regaining his true identity, in addition to the memories of the past 17/18 years with the order and all.
Allen’s always had a messed up sense of identity- when he was a child (Red) he was upset about not having any memories before being sold to the circus and not even remembering his own name. After mana 'died', he completely adopted Mana’s personality and mannerisms and now has trouble knowing who he himself really is, which is why he so easily believed (but was unsettled) that he’s been remade by Apocryphos. Because deep down he’s always known that something was off.
And from what we’ve seen of ‘og’ Allen, he seems pretty similar to the Allen we know, so it’s not like he’s becoming a different person entirely. At least I hope. That is if Nea does not fully take over. Maybe even if Nea takes over, Allen will still be there after Nea fulfills his goal. Or maybe im just being delusional bc I refuse to believe that the Allen we know is gone T-T
Side note, I am also curious about what og Allen’s wish was, if it was already fulfilled before Allen was remade or it is currently being fulfilled, or hasn’t been yet. I also really wanna see another Kanda/Allen reunion before anything crazy happens but I doubt that will happen considering their last goodbye ╥﹏╥ Anyways, it is crazy how everything is coming together in the last few chapters and I really hope we get to see this story to its end, even though I will be very sad (⌒▽⌒)
OMG. LAVI IS SO HOT. ALSO, CROSS MARIAN?! CYRUS?! ASDFGHJKL—
Damn, the illustrations are getting hotter and hotter!
High key super excited! I really need more missing my girl lenalee so bad
Just when things were starting to make sense to me, another detail added and suddenly I'm back to zero.
HOLYYYY CRAPP
Allen (MC) slowly changed into someone I don’t even recognize anymore.
He’s not Nea, not that Bookman who literally sacrificed his life to save the host Allen, and not even the host Allen himself.
All those memories, identities, and voices tangled inside him are slowly reshaping who he is, until it feels like he’s becoming someone entirely different, or maybe someone lost in between.
I agree that Allen changed a lot! Look at his haircut throughout the series
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Feels like after remembering everything, Allen's personality kinda changed.. idk if he matured or is he just extremely conflicted
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CROSS??? AN IMAGE? THE ACTUAL CROSS MARIAN? WHAT?
As I just start reading the whole manga from the start, some drawings feel like a crazy foreshadowing. I might be slightly exagerrated
No you’re roght, there’s a ton of foreshadowing actually xD
I have watch the anime 10 years ago and just happen to start read the manga last few days. For me it's only 10 years wait to found out that Cross still alive but for the manga reader... 15-16 years of waiting? Holy shit