Talk To Yourself

I promise you that I didn't make this account, it's just really freaking me out. Any advice for what I should do about it?

i don’t understand why but when i have a crush on somebody, instead of wanting them to like me back, i actually want to be friends only?? idk if it makes sense, eg, i have a crush on this dude and instead of confessing, i’d try to get him into a relationship with other people. is this even normal? it’s like i only like the feeling of having a crush on somebody and i don’t want them to like me back :/