Yall Ever Just Feel Sad

Mine goes like this:

Did you know that I love rainy days?
Now that it's autumn it's perfect. Autumn is my favorite season, not too cold, not too hot, it's just perfect.
I'd love to go to a cabin in the forest alone, just me and nature on a rainy day. It's a dream.
I came across a question yesterday on the internet, "When you were little, what did you want to be when you grow up?".
Honestly, I don't know. When I was in 1st grade my teacher asked me the same question but I don't remember what answer I gave her. I've lost most of my memories from my childhood. I can't remember the good times, how I used to study, how I laughed, or just my daily day, I can't. I only remember the bad, humiliating, embarrasing, times I had. Why are human minds like that? I don't want to remember the bad times, what about the good times, the good memories? What happened to them, where did they go?
When I zone out and the bad memories come before my eyes I immediately shake my head and sometimes slap myself to shake them off but they're still there. That's why I always play video games, watch anime, or read mangas to distract myself. I used to always listen to music before but now not as much as I did.
I've lost my thoughts now, I don't know what to write anymore so bye for now.


Writing really hepls me to express myself. I consider my diary/journal my best friend because I always tell it more than anyone else about myself.