Y'all Just Feel Sad When

I had a dream that I killed someone.
I shoved them into the bathroom and ignored their pleas for mercy.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I turned on the bathtub and filled it with scorching hot water.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I covered their small lips with my hand to cover their screams.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I pushed them in and watched them while they flinched in pain as their skin burned.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I wrapped my fingers around their neck and squeezed trying to silence them before anyone came.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I locked eyes with them as a sad smile came across their face as they pitied me.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I pressed my thumbs harder as they slowly stopped struggling, willing me to kill them.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I lost my breath as a sense of understanding came between us, for one of us had to die to let the other live.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I did not loosen my grip until they lost consciousness and became defenseless in my hands
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I slowly nudged them into the tub, making their whole body covered by water.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I sat there on the toilet holding just their wrist, sobbing, as their body grew cold and pulse weakened.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I lost focus as they slowly drowned in that tub of misery.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I stood up on my weak legs and reached out to the body.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I wished that I could bring them buck but I knew that they had to die so I could be free.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I kissed the pale hand that had no beat and quiet tears slipped down my face.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I watched as their hair floated in the water and moved around as I slid my fingers across the surface.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I killed them because I could not love them but still I regretted my actions when it was over.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I killed them so I could be free of my prison.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
I woke up of that dream afraid of the truth.
I had a dream that I killed someone.
THAT SOMEONE I KILLED WAS ME.