i am so not special that's crazy
i feel... hollow as we could call it. i am incapable of doing anything
not that i want to do anything
i'm not particularly interested or passionate about something. and it makes me sad to be average in anything meanwhile everyone is at least GOOD at something.
average at being pretty
average at my activities
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nighmare ... i saw that my friends don't need me anymore and that shit really happened ...
best dream:....tbh i have good dreams many times ...but every single of them was just a dream... never happened ..but my worst nightmare just became reality ...
now who got a depression and lost friends cuz they can't handle me being full of energy for a da...... reply
ok... i have supportive and loving parents... i have or maybe had good friends too...its just they can't handle my phases where i just want to quit everything i will shut down myself ...i want space i want to be alone...but not lonely ... i can control my emotions and i ws doing it for the past 2 years..i can't cry even when i try to... i got depre...... 1 reply
This is going to be a long rant, you don’t have to read it.....
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Ever since I was a child I would always see my father have violent outbursts, but my mother did everything so that I would see him in a positive light, and it’s understandable but her lies would later result my breakdown. Because of my mom’s influence I always saw m...... 1 reply
I remember when I was 7-6 years old I use to be skinny and tan brown I thought I was okay but I didn’t I couldn’t eat in lunch I was mostly very tired and I even pee on the bed I just didn’t know why.my crush and his friends bully me (at that time I was still in love with that fucker) people told me “shirt doesn’t look perfect on you pro...... 1 reply
I just had a bad flashback and a need to write it out somewhere... You don't need to click this, it's just trauma.
I was 8 and I had just learned about substractions. And my dad, this very intelligent human being, decided to teach me a different method from the one I was just taught at school. So, instead of going 10, 9, 8 etc, just go from the lo...... 4 reply
it's hard to have motivation when. yknow. nothing makes me happy anymore. ive just realized right now, at the fine time of 1:14 AM, that im never happy anymore. i dont know why im alive. isnt the sole purpose of living to enjoy life? but i dont. i hate so many things about myself. im only alive because 1. im a coward 2. i'd feel bad if i were to d...... 1 reply
"if you prayed, you wouldn't feel this way!" i'm pretty sure my mental health is making me lose faith in god but okay
"please, if you die then i will die" as if that would make me feel better
"be grateful for what you have, god gave you everything so don't feel this way" as if i can automatically stop being depressed when i realise how good my li...... 1 reply
