Making Friends

heyyy
i'm new to this mangago community thing (i've been on mangago for quite a while now but without an account) but i kinda need guidance for my relationship thing lmaoo
i'm writing in bulletpoints since i'm more comfortable with that!!
- i'm 15 (i'm pretty sure i'm a !lesbian!) and so is my 'girlfriend' (she keeps saying she's 'oh so gay' but who knows)
- we've been dating for 2 months now i guess
- she asked me out,, i actually don't really have feelings for her i just felt bad and didn't know how to reject anyone ok i'm infp-t
- i think she doesn't actually like me either though
- she's really into the the 'i'm gay omg giRls' idea idk maybe she thinks being gay is cool or quirky or something
- i'm not very upset or everything,, it's just that i feel like we're girlfriends,,, in name only? like she's treating this relationship (that she initiated) like it's an act and stuff????????
- in front of our friends she'd be really touchy and stuff idk
- alone its just like,,, we're friends that aren't even very close lmao
- its like,, bruh what the fuck? no?
- and she's extremely posessive,,, my best friend is ace and has come out to most people already,,,, she's also suffering from anxiety,,, and my 'girlfriend' gets mad when i'm trying to comfort her or am just having a conversation with her??
- i've tried to make her feel more secure so so many times,,, i tried to have little to none physical contact with my best friend who gets comfort from hugs and shit and her family's going through some really tough stuff
- but she just! keeps! complaining! and i've explained my best friend's situation to her already!!
- she keeps saying my best friend likes me,,,, bruh she doesn't ok she has a crush on her other friend lmao it's so obvious
- she literally kisses her friends on their cheeks???? and she says i'm cheating on her???????? i'm????????
- she also has completely screwed up morals,, like no try to be a better person<3
- i'm thinking of breaking up with her idk i'm kinda tired
- but her best friend who is also one of my close friends is threatening me! she thinks my 'girlfriend' actually likes me and i'm breaking her heart!
- babe she doesn't like me! she likes the idea of liking women/having a girlfriend! you're just saying that because your crush (who's a completely straight girl confirmed) dumped you for a guy!
i'm sorry i'm just ranting at this point,,,
any advice for my wackass relationship? :(
would love to make some friends too :')