How Keep Yourself Happy

i was thinking of painting my golden retriever but i feel like an idea that came out of boredom will make the end results better (last time i used a random animal generator to decide what i should paint for a school homework and it turned out better than my usual works )

So kangaroo-self has been thinking lately that maybe kangaroo-self is not just a kangaroo.like kangaroo-self knew kangaroo-self was a kangaroo all along but it just doesn't fit right to me anymore, kangaroo don't wanna Identify as that anymore. Kangaroo-self don't feel like kangaroo belong in this body. Kangaroo-self feel ike a wallaby more than a kangaroo...... What should I do?