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so here's the thing the only thing that makes me forget about my problems is animes/mangas/manhwas/bl and my family calls it "useless" because i cant gain anything from it. which makes me doubt myself that all im doing so far is useless. it makes me want to stop but if i stop i dont know what to do with my life anymore. ive been taking a break and stop watching/reading anime/manga. and i realize how lonely i am. when i stop doing things i like all of my problems comes back to me which is super unbearable i dont know what to do with my life anymore.

i wanna just smash my head so hard repeatedly on the wall until i broke my skull and i will cut my hands until i lose a lot of blood after that i'll slice my throat. so i'm asking you in? wanna join me?