Ok is this wrong? I really need some advice.

I need help/advice I have strong hatred towards my mother not like oh I hate her she’s so annoying but like I hate her so much I wouldn’t care if she died. So I wouldn’t kill her of course and I don’t have any psychological problems but I hate the very sound of her voice every word out of her mouth and really wouldn’t care if she died I might cry but I have known for a while that I never understand why I display a certain emotion after I display the emotion and recently I have just felt the hatred grow plz don’t call me crazy cause I really won’t care at all you’ll just waste ur time trynna call me crazy so plz don’t. I just want advice on how to either stop hating her or lessen it cause if it grows enough then I don’t know what I’ll say or do I just get emmense hatred and anger to her and am always wishing she would just shut the fuck up and never speak again. Again sorry if I sound crazy or somn but my hatred grows everyday and I don’t know what to do.