Ok so patheticness here don’t gotta read but I needa type this out

So my mom takes every chance to yell at me and she just yelled at me to answer her when she asks a question she don’t understand that I don’t wanna talk to her rn and I can’t stop cryin’ I don’t know what to do like I’m ugly crying rn and I’m scared i can’t stop cryin’ I really don’t wanna talk to her but she wouldn’t listen even if I did tell her so imma go hide in my room. I won’t be able to bring my iPad cause of her tho I hate her so much so why am I cryin’ damn it I’m crying even more typing this imma go hide now I can’t eat dinner with her rn I can’t look at her I hate her so much plz I hate her so much but can’t stop crying she takes every chance to yell at me and I don’t know what to do she mentally abuses almost every day and used to physically abuse me my dad doesn’t even try to do anything to help me he just yells at me more and I can’t take it anymore I won’t continue cause it would be extremely triggering to you guys so yeah imma go hide now again thx for reading I’m usually able to stop myself from crying but I can’t stop rn and if I say anything she’ll take my only source of sanity and happiness away from me and I’ll do something to myself I would regret a lot but I wouldn’t be able to control it so imma go hide and fight all the urges now so bye guys. Sorry if this is triggering at all and if u want me to tell me how to delete the question and I will peace y’all