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any people here are suicidal? (sorry for such a sad question)
I've been suicidal for 2 years now and I'm feeling terribly alone in this experience. I know this isn't the site for this kind of stuff, but sites who relate to this topic are making me feel even worse. so this is site is kind of an outlet for me. I've been suicidal since I've finished high school 2 years ago because working makes me feel so much anxiety and depression, that I literally cannot do it. I have panic attacks from the stress of being at work and knowing I need to go to work. so basically I'm stressed out all day, and I tried different jobs. (and I'm talking about those "part-time" jobs.) I'm living with my parents who are very emotionally abusive towards me. and I know I'll get kicked out soon. : The reason why I haven't successfully succeed at killing myself yet was because I'm afraid of heights (which is the best way for me to actually succeed) again, I know this isn't the website for this kind of thing, but people here are nicer and more open-minded and accepting than the people who are "supposed to help me" or "know what they are doing". Thank you guys. I want you to know you are the best kind of people (=・ω・=)
First of all, hi there and sorry in advance for the overly long answer. Something that really stood out to me in your story is that you think that the people who are "supposed to help you" and the people who "know what they are doing" are judgemental and untrustworthy. Maybe you think that once they know what you are going through they'll use it ag...... reply
I am sorry you are going through this. I am sorry life has been rough for you. You deserve better, my dear friend. I am sorry because you are pushed to the point where you thought you have no choice but turn the pain toward yourself to protect yourself.
Things get better.
Things get better.
Things get better.
Please do not give up. Things get b...... 2 reply
I attempted suicide numerous times myself, and the sole reason i kept on living was a hope inside me was that one day everything will get better. I used to drug overdose. drown myself, make cuts, went on top of high buildings, but everytime i decided to live on. Even today nothing much has changed. I'm bisexual, emotionally abused by parents who th...... 1 reply
I lived in a very rough environment so I get you ,it was anime and manga a part that prevented me from doing it. I was bullied ,kicked out of school, laugh at and so on . Even now I don't Iive with my family , just with people who "support"me. It's not easy to say since it is hard to tell"what should they do" or how other people feel ,everyone is d...... 1 reply
Hi.
I have gone through depression , panic attacks and anxiety but I was never suicidal.
Actually , I would like to live forever if I could.( even tho I'm sad 90% of the time ).
Maybe try to do what I'm doing , more exactly live for the small things.
Make a routine of waking up in the morning and drink a coffee by the window while you listen to yo...... reply
Sorry to hear your experience....
I have no right to talk to you.... but..... from what I have learned until today...
Please do not give up... Hang in there... There is a brighter tomorrow for you... Please believe in that.... You might not hear the same experience as you here in this site but I know inside there might be some people in this very...... reply
I don't consider myself a suicidal person. But yeah, sometimes i want to kill myself, for once then come back to life. yet i won't kill myself. like fvck, im scared of blood and i don't want to feel pain. reply
hey, it's okay, you're not alone in this.
for years I've been thinking of die too. though I'm scared of the pain and the blood, I held the knife but I don't have any strength to actually hurt myself. so even though I thought of killing myself, I'm actually very scared to end it myself. So I live on, depressed, feeling empty, stressed, and all that ...... 2 reply
I'm 54yo. I have suffered depression my whole adult life. I've been suicidal, a lot. Here is what I've learnt. Depression does not make you suicidal. What makes you want to end it all is being trapped. "There is no way out, I can't see things ever getting better, I (everyone) would be better off if I died, maybe it would make all the people who ca...... 1 reply
i dont know if its called suicidal but i have no plans to kill myself and leave troubles and history. i dont want to be tagged with 'why did she commit suicide' and people who acts like they care dig tge way of life i lived. second, my mother will be tramautized, same with my siblings.
im the eldest in the family and we are barely getting by. im q...... 3 reply
