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does anyone feel tired of living
this isnt related to manga but for a long time now i wanted to not be alive.
its kind of a different feeling than when i just wanted to die which isnt something ive been feeling often recently, i just dont want to be doing things that make me human like breathing now feels weird in a bad way and i dont want to move like when youre sick with the flu-feeling sluggish and cold.
i've talked to people for my other issues but i found that it only helps in the beginning and then i feel like im not meant to be there and that im just taking up space for someone who needs it more than me idek and then at times i feel like like im in slow motion and everyone else is normal speed but then it'll switch and i'd be going twice as fast and when im doing things like reading or listening i can't process anything so i just don't want to do it anymore.
moving schools has made it a lot worst but i knew it would so im only torturing myself at this point and its approaching winter and i get "winter blues" which makes me unproductive anyway but i also developed a phobia of snow last year which is so stupid but it scares the life out of me.
i have tried to take my life before a few times (mainly overdosing and such because of periods of anxiety and OCD) but i still feel sort of empty(?) like i dont have something in life that is meant to make me normal and want to do human things.
so does anyone feel like this and/or have any advice :)
I am 28 YO this year. As i age, I keep thinking of what is more to my life. I feel that life is pretty empty and boring too. I wake up, work, socialize, go home, go to bed and the same thing all over again the next day. I do also feel like my life is pretty much dead. A lot of my closer friends are either married or getting married. It's like life ...... 1 reply
think about it everyday, I've been considering suiciding. Half of my parents are ok and have the standard middle class life. Some days I feel calm others I go batshit crazy. If I ever gathered the willpower to do it, hanging and jumping seems like the most available options for me that I know of. But it can be quite a mess, don't want to traumatise...... reply
I understand where people are coming from, truly I do. And it's absolutely terrible; it's crippling sadness, it's a dull apathy, emptiness, a crushing hopelessness and helplessness.
All these feelings and more rolled into one.
It's a heavy weight in your mind and attached to your body, leaving you feel tired and unmotivated. It's standing in a fiel...... reply
i can definitely relate to a majority of this. i've found comfort in support groups, where we're all just getting things off our chest. although i'm less active in them now because i'm paranoid/depressed again, knowing i have a place to go back to (when i'm ready) to vent is nice. i've also been clutching to the little things and activities i love...... reply
I'm going to vent a bit here just to make myself feel heard.
I think I feel the same kind of emptiness you feel. I don't really want to "live" but I don't want to die either. I still want to be someone but living takes too much effort. It just doesn't seem worth it to me. Everything would be easier if I had a goal or dream on mind but I don't. I f...... reply
i sometimes feel that way too, i dont think i can explain it. i believe that sometimes i just feel depressed, like one moment i could be with my family and friends laughing and at the same time my mind is somewhere else feeling sad.
i never try to take my own life, i found that more tiring actually.
i feel empty sometimes too, i don't know what t...... reply
I totally relate. I started suffering from anxiety and depression around age 17, I believe - I'm 23 now. I have since gone through years of therapy and medication. At this point I have become a relative zombie emotionally - i.e. can't remember the last time I've felt happy or have really cried. reply
Tbh it's nice seeing that other people have similar feelings, even though it's tough, I feel understood :3
There are times when I just get tired of waking up, I would like to sleep until this feeling dissolve. But it doesn't. And I just do random things: live my life, study, eat, I do what I should do in fact.
But I behave that way because I have ...... 3 reply
I am 31 y/o and I have been wanting to die since way before I turned 14... Sometimes the feeling is more tangible than others... like lately I just wished it would just stop. Sometimes I just wanna float away... Other times I wanna be erased from everybody's memories... In times I just wanna hurt and die... I can even think how nice it would be to ...... reply
