something dumb

hey y’all so today i was decided to do some make up since i felt happier and my grandma sees me with huge smoky black eyeshadow and starts screaming at night as to why i have it on and thus waking up my strict mom who hates me getting pretty cuz she thinks i should stay unattractive until im out of the home, i’ve never wanted to cry more as one of the few ways i could express and feel better got ripped away from me. Anyways, she wants to talk about it tmr. I just feel so down now and idk how to react tmr, what should i even say or do?