any story with suicidal themes in it. something like 16647 perhaps.
Like I don’t know what’s happening to me, but I’m genuinely turning ho rn guys like I’m supposed to be going on a secret meet with a guy in a few days and he’s just a talking stage but listen I don’t talk to multiple people when talking to one person like that was always my rule for some reason I’m talking to this other guy as well who was definitely a lot more teasing to say the least and I honestly might be going on a secret meet with him next month, but I don’t know if I’m going to be dating the other guy by then so I don’t even know why I agreed which I usually would never do that and there’s also this girl who I might be getting into something with sexually like I don’t understand how I’ve become like this like what’s happening to me is it because it’s that time of the month and everything is just turning me into a sex freak
Im insecure of the way that i looked and its becoming a big thing in my life, i keep comparing myself to my friends and everyone around me, I always feel like the odd one out on my friendgroup i always feel alone and have no one to rely on because everyone on there have their own personal friend, I cant open up to them about how i feel becauss they'd either judge or get mad at me, and lately i've also been jelous towards my friend because i told her about who i liked then it turns out that the girl that i ended up liking was actually interested to her, at first she told me that the girl added her and from that i already know that shes either wanna be friend wth my hg or she liked her it was the second one and now she my friend keep talking to me about her and the girl texting tgt and about the fact that the girl invited her to go out sometimes at that my insecurity just got worsen ik its not their fault since we cant really force how people feel towards someone but i just cant stop feeling jelous and insecure towards myself now im having the urges to just end it all because what else do i have other than just existing, i dont feel love not from my friends specially not from my family it always feels like im just there, every family gathering no one really care about me even if it was my special day even my own mother make fun of the way that i looked the way that i drssed i also cant forget that word that my science teacher told me back in 6th grade where he was mocking the way that i was laughing and talking.
a couple of weeks after my attempt I started to accept a lot of my self-indulgences, like eating more sugar than I should, or reading stupid ass shit. I used to feel like a failure when doing these things but now I just do them because I realize that it's keeping me alive.
Ik I only read BL and dungeon/hunter type story without romance but it feels like I read all the story or they're on hiatus especially on BL. BL stories feels like full of grape so I lose interest, or they're all on hiatus. Do authors coordinates this like "hey we should end seasons at the same time":((
mine is snake hole its so fucking ass. All they do is fuck and if they aren’t fucking they are fucking while the top is a snake and the off-brand Luka (Alien stage) is pissing himself while getting fucked
How to behave in friendships when you are sensitive to every change
I was about to get cracked but found out dude was a virgin, bro then said since I have more experience I should take the lead and be the dominant one in bed. I told him I didn't like doing all the work and was more on the submissive side. I did offer to guide him into what I like and stuff. but dude got mad. dude had a whole attitude and was complaining about why I wouldn't just take the lead. now I'm feigning to be cracked and irritated.
That ending was fantastic but left a gaping hole in my heart. Isayama really wasn't kidding when he said he wanted to really affect his readers.
so uhm i got this one friend whos diagnosed with bpd and depression. we met online but ive seen them multiple times irl so i did consider them as one of my friends.
so just a while ago they bursted out to me bcs they noticed that i removed them from my private social media account. i explained that i removed them plus all my other friends because i want to delete it (i dont rlly use that account except for game clips and shitpost). they kept on saying that they feel left out and i dont consider them as my friend etc. they also mention that they feel lonely bcs i didnt text much and they thought im distancing myself away bcs i hate them or smth. i explained myself so hard that theyre important in my life
and i didnt even hate them one bit. rn they dont reply to any of my text and im getting anxious.
i know this is not about that account and all
but i did think that this is kinda my fault for making them feel that way bcs im a bit closer to another of my friend but in the same circle. i mean the closeness is only in the surface bcs we dont even talk that much except when we’re in game. i genuinely never think of it a big of a deal bcs i rlly enjoy being w them both equally but ig the other one think otherwise.
just to be clear, i genuinely think that removing someone from a social media isnt a bit of a deal(they also had one that they think i didnt know but i lowkirkenuinely dont care.) i did think they react like that bcs i was more closer to idk if its important to mention this but im also not a big fan of texting constantly. i can go days or months of not interacting with my friends and i can still talk to them normally. i did say this to them multiple times, that im not a big fan of texting constantly, but ig reassurance is rlly a big part of their life.
i feel like im obligated to stay by their side atm but this is not the first time that they burst out like this so its rlly starting to burn me out. i asked others for their opinion but i think that i need stranger’s opinion on this bcs i rlly rlly dont know how to feel. plsplspls help me out TT
so just a while ago they bursted out to me bcs they noticed that i removed them from my private social media account. i explained that i removed them plus all my other friends because i want to delete it (i dont rlly use that account except for game clips and shitpost). they kept on saying that they feel left out and i dont consider them as my friend etc. they also mention that they feel lonely bcs i didnt text much and they thought im distancing myself away bcs i hate them or smth. i explained myself so hard that theyre important in my life
and i didnt even hate them one bit. rn they dont reply to any of my text and im getting anxious.
i know this is not about that account and all
but i did think that this is kinda my fault for making them feel that way bcs im a bit closer to another of my friend but in the same circle. i mean the closeness is only in the surface bcs we dont even talk that much except when we’re in game. i genuinely never think of it a big of a deal bcs i rlly enjoy being w them both equally but ig the other one think otherwise.
just to be clear, i genuinely think that removing someone from a social media isnt a bit of a deal(they also had one that they think i didnt know but i lowkirkenuinely dont care.) i did think they react like that bcs i was more closer to idk if its important to mention this but im also not a big fan of texting constantly. i can go days or months of not interacting with my friends and i can still talk to them normally. i did say this to them multiple times, that im not a big fan of texting constantly, but ig reassurance is rlly a big part of their life.
i feel like im obligated to stay by their side atm but this is not the first time that they burst out like this so its rlly starting to burn me out. i asked others for their opinion but i think that i need stranger’s opinion on this bcs i rlly rlly dont know how to feel. plsplspls help me out TT
OH MY GWAD WHERE CAN I WATCH VANITAS NO CARTE?? PLS TELL ME THE NAME OF A WEBSITE ITS LITERALLY MY CONFORT ANIME.
P.S: I used to watch it on hian1me
P.S: I used to watch it on hian1me
I want to wash my eyes. They didn't mean sukuna's true form, they literally meant his real body, like his real mummified body. No it wasn't a misunderstanding, they provided the picture too. Did i lowkey encounter a necrophile?
I remember once I studied so hard I literally got sick and genuinely almost cried during my exam because I couldn't focus LOL
Me and my friend roast each other a lot and he manages to get under my skin sometimes lol
Does anyone else ever randomly remember your fav stories and then get sad cuz you cannot read more of them anymore??
MY MISS TGCF UGGHHH MY SHAYLAAA I LOVE THEM SM
MY MISS TGCF UGGHHH MY SHAYLAAA I LOVE THEM SM
I believe in god but question it's existence at the same time I absolutely disgust ppl then again I would be seeking for approval or validation I would say I am not interested in men but if a good looking guy passed by I would be gawking I will say „I'd defo finish this but not do that in the end” I would decide... from tomorrow I would start behaving consistently but everytime I fail....
for anyone with abusive parents, how do you learn to distance yourself, to not place your value on what they think of you, to avoid all contact with them?
I just want to get away from them and live alone but im in hs right now. im planning on getting a job so I have no reliance on them financially. all they do is scream at me for my grades (lowest is a 95), tell me im not doing enough, and won't make it in life.
has anyone ever had parents like this? please help. logically, I know theyre insane and I shouldn't listen to what they say. emotionally, they're my parents, and my mental health has gotten so bad. once I begin applying for colleges, it'll get so much worse. I feel so scared at home knowing that at any time they'll barge in and scream at me for hours on end
I just want to get away from them and live alone but im in hs right now. im planning on getting a job so I have no reliance on them financially. all they do is scream at me for my grades (lowest is a 95), tell me im not doing enough, and won't make it in life.
has anyone ever had parents like this? please help. logically, I know theyre insane and I shouldn't listen to what they say. emotionally, they're my parents, and my mental health has gotten so bad. once I begin applying for colleges, it'll get so much worse. I feel so scared at home knowing that at any time they'll barge in and scream at me for hours on end
I think something was always wrong with me. Ever since I was a child.
My mom sent me to a course to learn English because other neighbors were doing the same with their kids. I was 10.
She wanted me to go to a languages high school and pursue English even in university. I tried to voice my opinion and said I didn't want to be an English teacher. I begged her. I said I'll be a regular teacher, not an English one. She started saying "...then what about all the money that will go to waste? All our efforts?" Dad took her side.
I wasn't doing well in high school. I was so depressed I cut myself. I have scars all over my wrist and legs. I tried to kill myself three times.
I was forced to take the uni entrance exam, which I passed. The first day I had to go to uni I took more than 100 pills in hopes that I don't have to wake up and see the ligh of day again. Too bad they didn't work.
I was failing uni too.
When they finally saw that I was failing and started listening to me and said that I didn't want to be an English teacher, they blamed me. They said that it was me that wanted this. I was the one that said I wanted to be an English teacher.
I dropped out.
They sent me to a technology course, to a math course, and I got accepted in university for Computer Science. I loved it. I was doing so well there. I don't have a job. My sister and my parents got a small apartment and I and my sister live there until I finish university and get a job.
Now they're threatening to not pay for the apartment anymore and they said fuck your university just because I don't give them a call every day. Because sometimes me and my sister argue. They're religious and they said that the devil is messing with my mind. I can't go to uni now. I don't know what to do anymore. The only choice I have is just to off myself.
My mom sent me to a course to learn English because other neighbors were doing the same with their kids. I was 10.
She wanted me to go to a languages high school and pursue English even in university. I tried to voice my opinion and said I didn't want to be an English teacher. I begged her. I said I'll be a regular teacher, not an English one. She started saying "...then what about all the money that will go to waste? All our efforts?" Dad took her side.
I wasn't doing well in high school. I was so depressed I cut myself. I have scars all over my wrist and legs. I tried to kill myself three times.
I was forced to take the uni entrance exam, which I passed. The first day I had to go to uni I took more than 100 pills in hopes that I don't have to wake up and see the ligh of day again. Too bad they didn't work.
I was failing uni too.
When they finally saw that I was failing and started listening to me and said that I didn't want to be an English teacher, they blamed me. They said that it was me that wanted this. I was the one that said I wanted to be an English teacher.
I dropped out.
They sent me to a technology course, to a math course, and I got accepted in university for Computer Science. I loved it. I was doing so well there. I don't have a job. My sister and my parents got a small apartment and I and my sister live there until I finish university and get a job.
Now they're threatening to not pay for the apartment anymore and they said fuck your university just because I don't give them a call every day. Because sometimes me and my sister argue. They're religious and they said that the devil is messing with my mind. I can't go to uni now. I don't know what to do anymore. The only choice I have is just to off myself.
