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put your thoughts in the replies cuz im bored asf
so basically for all my life my sister has been a bitch towards our family,, but recently its gotten worse. not really recently tho like,,, 2017 or 2018.. its not really a "omg stop being so rude towards ppl" its more of "stop assaulting your family members and emotionally and abusing your siblings"

my sister has done many things to me that has caused me a lot of emotional distress. shes hit and shoved me to the ground, called me retarded, told me to kill myself, etc.. sometimes she stops for around a month or so i start getting closer to her and then she does it again... i've told my mom bout most of these things, including the telling me to kill myself and that shed kill me in my sleep by pouring bleach down my throat.( though shes made many threats talking about killing or harming me in my sleep) part but she just called my sister and ig told her not to do it anymore? i didn't even get an apology..

im also assuming my sister knows i'm trans because she's always snooping through my phone and once while she was harassing me, she called me a she-man <3

the only time when my mom actually gets involved is when it actually involves/offends he. there have been many instances where the police were called to our house because of her and even more times where they'd have constant arguing. the most i've gotten from my sister is one or two forced apologies. but my mom uses my trauma whenever she has an argument with her and idk how to feel ab that...

at least once a year since 2017, my mom and my sister have an argument and my sister goes to stay at our grandmothers house for about 2 months. she comes back and everything's fine for about 5 months and then it happens again. and here i am still thinking all of this is my fault and i did something to trigger these actions

anyway i've come to the conclusion we ALL have a mental illness gn xo