Am I disgusting for wanting to be male

I saw a couple questions talking about how if the person were male they would do whatever they said and I saw a lot of people say it was disgusting, I was already questioning if I felt like I wanted to be referred to as male or not and now it's even harder to know how I feel because if it's disgusting to be male I wouldn't want to be but on the other hand it's how I feel and it's just really
confusing (╥﹏╥")