Fujoshi's How are your first time?

I was actually curious about how Fujoshi's feel when they first read BL comics. I dont understand how you like BL when you dont have schlongs (Im not being offensive nor disgusted, but curious)

Guide Question:
> How did you feel on your first time? (Did you feel disgusted, shock, arouse or happy)
> Did you regret reading BL? If yes, why? (Is it because the one you read is fucked up or it is your first time) (Im open to everyone's opinion)
> After your "first time" reading BL, what do you prefer? straight or BL?
> What is the edge (difference or beauty) of BL compared to straight comics?

- That is what Im curious about, it is okay if you only want to answer some question and not everyone.
- Also, you can add your different perspective that is not being contained in my guide question.

Note:
> Please be open minded, if there are some negative comments (referring to different answer), it is okay since we have different opinion.
> If you are weired out by that fact that Im curious to your experience, then dont mind this post.
> Im sorry if I cant, reply to your answer, but rest assured I will read all of them.