I don't know what my taste are

First of all, i like men. I don't know what kind of men and that's why I'm confused. Many people asked me what are my taste in men are and I can't exactly pinpoint them. I like men with macho type because i like the texture of the specs and the man boobs and they're nice to hug. I also kinda like the chubby type bcuz they're soft and so huggable. However there's a time where i also get tired of chubby things so i started to like the skinny type, but because they're skinny i kinda get scared I'll break them. Then i would miss the texture of a specs and the man boobs so the cycle kinds of goes on.

Then the face. I don't really like the handsome type of men cuz i would have so many rivals and those who would be jealous of me, so i go for the average type of men. But the average type of men kind of cheated on me bcuz they think they are all that? Then i go for the femboys, however the "some" of femboys is sooo the pick me type of a person and it gets so annoying so i kinda gave up on the face and just imagine that the person is a faceless man and just focuse on the body then. (￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ