SOS pls

I don’t know where else to ask for help about this besides the root cause. I hope this doesn’t get banned. I started getting into yaoi/hentai at a young age. It started off relatively innocent. I’d read the causal story here and there with some censored smut. But now I’ve become so desensitized and am into so many extreme kinks that I can’t get turned on by normal actions. I only get turned on by extreme kinks or situations that I wouldn’t actually want done to me. I feel like a freak and feel bad for any future partners but I don’t know how to reverse the effect. It’s like an addiction.