actually being serious for once

I've come up with two ironic jokes, one of which is "blud said do you rizz me," but this is one that I really want to get off my chest because I haven't told anyone about it for fear that they'll judge me in my personal life. I was never very pretty as a kid instead, I would constantly compare myself with my two cousins, believing that they were much prettier than I was. The hardest years of my life were definitely the middle school years because I was so self-conscious about my appearance and what I was wearing. I would usually complain about how puberty wasn't hitting me since I remained the same and nothing had changed. Every guy would always tell me about my bushy eyebrows, I hated the guys so much because they always commented on how harry-like my arms or my "mustache" were. Even in high school, my baby face gave an appearance that I was still in middle school, which made me hate the way I looked. But this summer, I felt the urge to take action. I started to research the best makeup for me and how to apply it. My boobs got bigger after puberty finally hit and I had my eyebrows waxed. When school officially started, I felt excited to go to school for the first time. I was very very happy when other girls began complementing my makeup and outfit. and a guy asked for my phone number for the first time. I was gaining attention, something I had never experienced, and I felt good about my new appearance. I used to receive a ton of likes if I posted a photo of myself to my story. Now, both guys and girls were talking to me. Everything was going well until my cousin texted me with this screenshot of a guy's close friend's story. I don't think he realized we were related, but in that story, there is a picture of me bending over and wearing a v-neck shirt, so you can see my boobs, and he wrote, "Let me hit that real quick" it was a screenshot of one of my tiktoks. I started crying when I saw that picture since that guy was someone I thought of as a friend during the first week of school when we had been talking since we sat next to each other in english. He continued asking me whether I was okay the next day when I had English with him, but I didn't say anything all through that time. We had lunch together after English, and I eventually approached him to show him the photo. He began to become angry and accuse me of being the cause because I was dressing provocatively. Since then, we have not talked. I held back from telling my mom, sister, or even my cousin what he said because I knew they would go to the principal's office about it. I remained silent as a result, but I feel the need to speak up in sight of what happened on Friday. My town hosts a four-day fair every year. Everyone in my town goes all out since it's a big deal. I always get ready with my cousin, so that is what we did. We kept eating things like dip and dots and took pictures as everything was going fine. I was the only one who continued to drink the large cup of lemonade that we were given. After a time, I had to use the restroom, so I went alone because my cousin was going to get ride tickets. After using the restroom, I turned to go when someone yelled "hey" to me. It was a guy who appeared to be a little older than me. I stopped moving and turned to face him, at which point he asked for my number. I thought he was from another school because I hadn't seen him at my school. I apologized and then told him that I have a boyfriend I was obviously lying. I assumed the conversation was over when he questioned, "Are you sure you have a boyfriend?" I responded "yes" to him once more and started to leave when he repeated, "Why would your boyfriend let you go out like that?" He was talking about what I was wearing when I left without telling him anything, but as soon as I spotted him following him, I started running more quickly until I eventually lost sight of him. I returned to my cousins, who asked whether I was alright. I haven't said this to anyone, not even my real friends. I assumed everything would come back to me, but now I'm back to square one with being self-conscious once more. I'm debating telling my mom about this, but I'm not sure. I'm sorry, but I just had to vent about the fact that this is the only place where no one genuinely knows me lol.