Would you rather be crazy good looking, or like an ogre under the bridge?

Me and my ex, we're both guys. To sum up, (imo) I'm mad ugly and my ex had a model-like face. I was always so insecure about my looks. One topic we would always have arguments about was our difference in appearances.

I'd always get jealous when he literally walks into the room and have every single woman in the room ask for his number. Jealous for 1: "Back off, he's mine." and 2: "Sometimes I wish I could get just a fraction of that attention."
One time, a person asked for my number (just to make friends, but it was the first time someone has ever taken interest in me except for my ex) and he lashed out at me, saying I'm being unfaithful for being happy that someone other than him finds me at least decent to look at.

So would you rather be crazy good looking, or like an ogre under the bridge?
(Sorry for trauma dumping)

Additional trauma dumping: Another thing when we were still together is that he never called me "beautiful" or "pretty" even once. The most he has ever said was "cute". I brought it up to him one time and he only said "I don't usually use those words". The next day he literally complimented how beautiful our mutual girl friend looked, and that really hurt my already low self-esteem.