Do you ever just realise that you are always alone? Like you can pretend you are not when you're around people but going into quarantine has just reminded me why I feel like shit all the time. Like it just sucks to realise that no one actually texts or messages you and the people that do have other lives so you can't just attach yourself to them. Like I know people say love yourself and then people will love you, and you can change how you act so that people like you. But I've tried for 3 years now to have friends, but I'm never invited to anything and no one talks to me regularly.
Do you ever realise people that you had grown emotionally attached to just don't feel like that for you? I'm not even talking romantically but platonic friends who I thought we were really close, just don't care. I'm so sick of having my heart broken by people, I hardly feel romantic attraction so it's not even crushes, it's just having my heart broken because people don't care.
I've had a friend say "be more confident" and if you're not just "fake it till you make it" but how the hell can you be confident in approaching and making relationships, with friends, family, potential partners when no one has ever approached you before . You can't fake a way of acting when you've never seen how people do that.
Most likely going to delete this when I wake up, so idk if you relate, lets have a pity party together at least
Oh this is so like me ┗( T﹏T )┛ I do have close friends but anyway i always feel distanced and alone. I feel like shit but i pretend i'm ok and everything is alright. I'm sick of this situation. I tried to become like how ppl say but tbh it's impossible. I mean how can i be like that when i have no idea in what way? Recently i stopped trying. And i want to accept myself as the way i am. This is the real me. If others can' t underestand, it's not important anymore. This way i can breathe easily. Bc i know i don't have to bput on an act. Thanks for sharing ur feelings. At least now i know i'm not the only one :)
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Bruh, i can relate.
Do you have line? Let's chitchat.
Do u have Instagram?? We could talk
Oh this is so like me ┗( T﹏T )┛
I do have close friends but anyway i always feel distanced and alone. I feel like shit but i pretend i'm ok and everything is alright. I'm sick of this situation. I tried to become like how ppl say but tbh it's impossible. I mean how can i be like that when i have no idea in what way?
Recently i stopped trying. And i want to accept myself as the way i am. This is the real me. If others can' t underestand, it's not important anymore. This way i can breathe easily. Bc i know i don't have to bput on an act.
Thanks for sharing ur feelings. At least now i know i'm not the only one :)
bruh ive never related harder
I get it too