post-nut clarity

ive literally found a pattern every time i masturbate. i reach climax and then i get awfully disgusted w what i just did and then continue to do my everyday things. like, that cant just be me right?? like i just masturbated and lord was it good, but then after i couldnt take it any longer w my vibrator, i stopped but like not even a split second after i feel so disgusted w what i just came to and what i had literally seen to reach that climax. that cant just be me, right?? and ive came to really, really obscene stuff.