Is this suicidal?

I was definitely suicidal when I was like 10-14 but now I'm not even sure if this counts as being suicidal or what because I've recovered from sh and stuff like that but now I just don't feel like there's a point in being alive despite everything being normal if that makes sense?

Life is going decent for me and I'm following the path my parents want as there's nothing that I personally want to pursue but I just feel like there's just nothing that's keeping me alive as when i did before it was for my passion in drawing but I've been becoming less and less movitated to do anything in life and I just want to cease to exist atp. There's nothing I'm looking forward to and I just feel like life isn't worth living even though everything in my life is fine now

Does anyone else have similar experiences and maybe recovered from that feeling?