Which one is the real me ?

which one is the real me? i have so many versions of me. for my family i am the most shy most caring , most awkward person ever. all my relatives love me for this , yes because i am shy and timid infront of them. i have anxiety so yes I am shy according to them. but for my friends i am a freaky outgoing person and also someone who's always very anxious. for my boyfriend i am the most craziest and freakiest person. the things we did can't be disclosed. so i wonder which one is the real me? actually i want to do so many things but due to my severe social anxiety i just can't. i can't even walk alone. when i went for college i saw some changes in me. that was first time i ever danced and sang in stage . i have always wanted to do that. so the me who can't do that is real or the one who did that? ah idk what i am saying anymore i feel anxious also i don't sometimes. all these feels like a puzzle. i should stop here. bye . thank you for your time