help finding a manga

okay so it is kinda old but it had a good shoujo art style. The premise was there were two male leads, one blonde and one dark haired. She likes blondie but confesses to the dark haired ml on accident! she can't tell him it is a mistake cuz she thinks he would kill her based on his reputation. So she has to keep pretending but they are supposed to fall in love. I think she is a blonde healer/saintess?
Ahhhh I gotta study but I trust you guys know what this story is called!

Thanks!!!!