im lonely and miserable

im not native to the area i live, I've lived here my whole life but didn't have to speak much of the native language here. i can understand it, read it, even speak it, but it takes me time to process it, i can't converse in it fluently.

and i never faced a language barrier in school because it was a rich ppl private school, but im now in a government medical college and i get deliberately excluded from conversations, ignored, unheard for not speaking their language. im trying but it's hard.

plus this place is full of raging homophobia and transphobia, people are already questioning my masc appearance and idk how long i have till i start getting targeted for it.

i just wanna get my mbbs degree and get out of this country man. i don't wanna deal with idiots. all I've done today is an unsuccessful driving lesson, and crying. everyone is sick at home and I'm supposed to be the responsible one today. what the fuck is life