Am i still a victim?

I was 14 and my s/o was 19, it's just 5 years so it wasn't bad for me and I was the one to pursue them most of times. Our relationship was going well till things became sexual and he insisted it was okay for me to do it cause we've been together for 5 months and it was "normal" for ppl who are lovers. At first I didn't want to but later on, I accepted and I actually felt good for all those nights but then he got more and more demanding. I felt bad that if I didn't do it , it meant I don't love him. I was disgusted of myself for a long time till then he broke up with me. I felt like I was only used for my body. I was the first one to pursue them, I did the first move and all but I feel disgusted. It wasn't like he agreed immediately, we were in a situation ship till I was 15.