Insecurity

Hey y'all!
This is a bit vulnerable and embarrassing to admit, but I have been dealing with a bout of crippling low self esteem lately. I cannot, for the life of me, find myself attractive. What is making it a bit worse than usual atm is one of my friends is VERY beautiful and a wonderful person. She constantly gets approached and complemented by everyone she meets. I cannot help (DESPITE HATING MYSELF FOR DOING THIS), but feel a bit bad for myself after being overlooked and ignore over and over repeatedly. And, I mean repeatedly -I have lost count at the number of times. I know this is my own issue, and I am in no way blaming my friend at all btw! If anyone has any advice on how to deal with this in a healthier way- pls lmk! It just makes me feel like no matter what I wear, what makeup I do, ect.- It's never enough yk. I'd also like to add that I am 23 with NO relationship experience which I suppose makes me want it more idk :( PS. I am asking on here bc i cannot afford therapy lmao. Please be nice