wine veeeeent

''i aint reading allat'' then stfu


im wine drunk im gonna vent im 18 btw dw
bruh I feel so lonely I js want a family
my unc who I dont like bc he used to tickle me too hard when I was a lil kid and I saw him wank his shit is terminally is and bc of that my family dynamic is ruined everyone is depressed and going crazy and I became my family emotional support because my mom is prolly losing it too bc IT'S HER BROTHER . my grandparents need to take care of him instead of living rest iof their lives peacefully. my cousin his 10 yr old daugther is alr depressed so is the rest of family. my dad's side is either dead or batshit insane. everyone is miserable I feel like I need to carry all ts w my positivity which is hard since I was basically planning to not be here rn not so long time ago bc 2 of my friends DIED and I crawled out of my addiction by myself NO therapy now I have another challenge ig LOL. My mom is in bad state pls I hope she doesn't lose it...I will do everything for her to feel better but its js hard bro and I feel like I'm in worst position cause everyone has it worse its their dad, brother, son dying. and I saw smth yall didnt omg this sucks so bad and now I'm gonna spend christmas in hospital yay I feel so disconnected from them I see them on christmas once a year and its been bad for couple yrs now not mentioning my declining mental health I swear I'm not going crazy on purpose I can just feel the depression and all that sadness through the air I sometimes can't take it. idk how much longer I can keep on being my own therapist lol ヾ(☆▽☆) death all around me