I wanna leave air force guard

I enlisted and signed a contract in May but I regret it now. I was already unsure for the past few months because I don’t feel mentally or physically ready but my mom had a mental breakdown this weekend and I called to be excused for drill and I mentioned leaving the Air Guard then because of my mom and everything. I have bootcamp in March and my supervisor said it’s not that simple but then she said I can try to leave and talk to a First Shirt about my mom and leaving. Talked to him today and he made it sound like it would not be possible for me to leave the Air Force and I have an obligation I’m expected to meet, but he’d talk to people about it. He also said if I were to really want to I’d probably need a very good case as to why I couldn’t go at all. I asked my recruiter and talked to people online in the Air Force. They said refusing to ship to basic can have legal repercussions and I’ll be jn big trouble, that I can’t get DEP discharge since I’m Guard, and the best I can do is explain my situation to command and see if they’ll let me separate :( I asked my recruiter if I can get an entry level separation and he said he has no what it’ll be called or what will happen, just to talk to my First Shirt and see what the decision is. I really don’t want to go ot bootcamp and a part of me is thinking even if they don’t let me separate I might just refuse to go to bmt, but O can be labeled AWOL and even go to jail I don’t know what to do. My brother is in the Army Guard and telling me not to worry, he said he thinks they’ll separate me and not give me any legal issues because why would they want to keep someone who doesn’t want to be there. But I’m worried because everyone I talked to is saying it’s not easy and I might still have to stay in or be in big trouble if I try to leave/refuse bootcamp

Idk what to do, I’m just venting right now. If anyone knows anything about Air Force and Air Guard and the process any advice and information that’d be great