Kim Dokjas Thighs's Things

I enlisted and signed a contract in May but I regret it now. I was already unsure for the past few months because I don’t feel mentally or physically ready but my mom had a mental breakdown this weekend and I called to be excused for drill and I mentioned leaving the Air Guard then because of my mom and everything. I have bootcamp in March and my supervisor said it’s not that simple but then she said I can try to leave and talk to a First Shirt about my mom and leaving. Talked to him today and he made it sound like it would not be possible for me to leave the Air Force and I have an obligation I’m expected to meet, but he’d talk to people about it. He also said if I were to really want to I’d probably need a very good case as to why I couldn’t go at all. I asked my recruiter and talked to people online in the Air Force. They said refusing to ship to basic can have legal repercussions and I’ll be jn big trouble, that I can’t get DEP discharge since I’m Guard, and the best I can do is explain my situation to command and see if they’ll let me separate :( I asked my recruiter if I can get an entry level separation and he said he has no what it’ll be called or what will happen, just to talk to my First Shirt and see what the decision is. I really don’t want to go ot bootcamp and a part of me is thinking even if they don’t let me separate I might just refuse to go to bmt, but O can be labeled AWOL and even go to jail I don’t know what to do. My brother is in the Army Guard and telling me not to worry, he said he thinks they’ll separate me and not give me any legal issues because why would they want to keep someone who doesn’t want to be there. But I’m worried because everyone I talked to is saying it’s not easy and I might still have to stay in or be in big trouble if I try to leave/refuse bootcamp

Idk what to do, I’m just venting right now. If anyone knows anything about Air Force and Air Guard and the process any advice and information that’d be great

There are fake gooners that roam this Earth and it terrifies me. People who read smut, see hot af people and characters, make outrageous comments and aren’t REAL gooners!? How and why? Gotta be ragebait

I’ve recently gotten more involved with weight and height and how it affects health and what’s normal because I gained a bit of weight and felt fat, but I’m actually the bare minimum for my height and age range.

This situation made me really pay attention to what other people weigh and the weight standard as a whole. I would look up Kpop idols I liked and see their height and weight and also how some of them get that small. And I think I’ve learned that almost all of them are starving themselves and very underweight. Even the male idols. I learned that Felix from SKZ has done a bunch of water fasts and other diets to stay thin. He’s 5’7 and weighs like 120lb mind you (might be a bit off) which is underweight. He seemed to be focused on keeping his cheeks thin too?? I also looked up female idols. Most were 5’4-5’8 and weighed 90-108lb. Which does not seem healthy at all.

And I watched a video asking women in Korea about weight and they all said 100-110 is the ideal weight for a woman, regardless of height. One woman who looked very small was considered fat and she only weighed 127lb. It’s insane. These poor people are killing themselves. Even worse than that, there are slobs who actually consider them “fat” and “ugly”.

But this isn’t just in Korea or Asian countries. I’ve also seen in western culture that men are very obsessed with weight. Not even how it looks on a woman just the number itself. It seems men think 110-115 is somehow the ideal weight too despite height. And having a flat stomach.

It just upsets me to realize that many men want underweight women and this causes so many girls to suffer. They also say it’s a valid “preference” but I honestly don’t think that it could be considered a preference or valid because they want something unhealthy and/or physically impossible (as far as I know it’s almost completely impossible for a woman to have a completely flat stomach bc the fat is stored there to protect the uterus) And in Korea, both men and women are suffering.

Is it common for partners to fantasize about sex with other people while in a relationship? Is it okay? Would someone be an asshole or insecure for not wanting their partner to do that and even breaking up if they found out they did?

Example. A woman finds out her husband has threesome fantasies. Most people would say a fantasy isn’t always an actual want/plan to do it and it’s not the same as cheating, so it’s not a problem. If the woman is upset or leaves him she’d be an asshole. Is she?

I have to take a polygraph to verify an interview I had and I fucking lied on the interview about a lot of shit. Lied and said I’ve never done anything illegal. Bitch I pirate stuff all the time. Lied and said I’ve never drunk alcohol underage. Lied and said I don’t have a “secret side” (me supporting LGBTQ+ rights and reading thqt stuff is a secret side, as well as porn bc I live in a conservative family and environment) Also said I have no foreign contacts but I talk to foreigners online all the time. I also mentioned this to my mom but fudged the details bc of stuff she’s disapprove of and I think she knows I’m doing things she dislikes and even worse, thinks I’m into shady things I think I’m screwed at home and for this polygraph