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Is there something wrong with me or am I over thinking it?
My uncle died today and I don't feel anything no sadness no missing him no feeling sorry or worried about how my aunt is feeling nothing in fact I felt as if it was a normal day to the point I even forgot he died for a few hours Its as.if I just heard a random person died today I mean we were not that close but still I grew up with him and ik it sounds like I'm over reacting but it's not the first time this has happened I remember when I was around 7/8 years old and my dad was in the hospital for a heart attack and was close to dying he even had to.get surgery but I didn't care at all I wasn't sad I wasn't worried I just felt annoyed that we had to go to the hospital so much but everyone around me was crying and worried and my cousin who was around the same age as me was crying saying I was crazy for not caring and it's not like me and my dad had a bad relationship no.in fact we were the closest a dad and a kid could get but I just didn't feel anything same thing with my mom she had cancer and had to go through so many surgerys but once again I just didn't care in fact I was more annoyed then anything bc we had to travel so much to doctors tbh me and her have more of a hate relationship than anything especially at that time but still I think I should have some what cared
And the truth is I feel like if my family like my mom dad and little sister passed I really wouldn't care or feel anything besides being annoyed and I've thought about it seen it happening in my head just to see how I would feel and it wasn't sadness I felt but almost the opposite I don't want to say happiness but it wasn't far off from it the thing is I have really bad anger issues to the point of wanting to hurt people both mentally and physically of course I don't but the desire is still there but If i.couldn't feel emotions and was just fucking crazy whatever but the problem is I can feel emotions I feel sadness I feel happiness I feel anger I feel all of it like a normal person I can cry from a show feel happy from a good novel I can feel angry from something stupid I can feel shy from meeting people I can care what people think i CAN miss people and Care for them but it's almost like somethings just wrong
And I'm not even asking this on here bc I feel guilty no I realize I don't care the way I should ik it's not normal to desire and feel happiness from hurting people I just wanted to see if maybe someone can give me a idea on what might be wrong with me
Anyways Ik I sound stupid and like im trying to be dark or something im not I just don't know how to explain it and ik I'm probably not going to get answers from mgg but i.just wanted to get it off my mind
You don't sound stupid at all. From the information you gave about yourself and your family in the post, it sounds like you are experiencing emotional dysregulation. It seems like there are a lot of unresolved issues in your life that have affected the way you express (or don't express) that possibly could be the root of your anger issues. If you a...... 2 reply