I can’t commit to anything oml

Ok so I joined this art event on an art server and there was teams which I was placed into, and for the first few days when we where planning and creating characters designs it was all fun and I was fine, but now that we’re actually getting to the drawing and rendering part I have no motivation to do it and Im lowk just not responding to anybody Im so fucking scared. Ive ghosted one person for a drawing collab I was supposed to do and I kept telling someone I was gonna collab with a while ago that I’ll finish soon but I know my ass in never getting it done why am I like this Ive had to refund someone for a drawing comm too cause I just couldn’t finish it T-T like drawing for myself is fine I just can’t find it in me to do collabs anymore or draw for others, but like I sometimes do have the motivation it just goes away half way through when I really need it