it's frustrating being asexual sometimes

it's seriously so difficult sometimes to be on the asexual spectrum. because firstly, majority don't even understand you T_T. they think asexual=no libido. while it can be true for some of the aces, it's not true for ALL of them. it's like saying all gay men like feminine stuff. might be true, but not really. also, they just do not understand that just because aces don't feel sexual attraction, they don't have libido.
secondly, it's so DIFFICULT managing your libido as an asexual. it's frustrating. it's like you're hungry and no food looks eatable. genuinely. and you're literally crying bc you're so hungry but the thought of eating borderline make you want to puke. going through my ovulation week rn (probably) AND ITS HELL. please stop!
and i cant even express this frustration to anyone, bc i genuinely do not even feel like masturbating. like seriously, it doesn't even get me off T_T. it just builds and builds and no peak is reached. great! now i'm even more frustrated.

having said that, i dont know about allosexual experience. what do they feel, how it is for them, how hell ovulation week is for them or menstruation week, i don't know. im not saying allosexuals have it easy, not my intention. but AGH, sometimes i wish i felt sexual attraction so i could just be "normal" T_T. (i know aces are normal as well, but i mean it in a present society's amatonormative heteronormative sense)

like seriously, i cant even read yaoi or yuri or even straight stories with romance or smut rn bc it's frustrating me T_T.