From what I remember, my earliest attempt was at 9-10 years old. I don't really remember too much, but I was having a breakdown because I was getting bullied in school. people making a made-up disease and naming it after me, people suddenly going "ew" and immediately taking their hands away after getting informed that what they touched was my belonging, etc.... when I cried and told her I didn't want to go to school anymore because of that, she said it was because I didn't interact with them much, and I was at fault. There was boiling water (because I was planning to drink coffee before the fight happened), and guess what? poured it over myself. Suddenly, all of the "fine, do it then, kill yourself" turned into worry. The other attempt was because they wouldn't let me in a sleepover after always spending my days with family (homeschooled kid typa thing pt2), threatened to end my life with a knife, my family fighting me for it, getting a few slashes in my hands, and yeah. I was in a pretty fragile mental state back then. After finally having friends for so long (they're not my friends anymore at this time because they became problematic lol), I literally offered my life for them, disregarding myself. if anyone wants to ask why or what certain things my ex-friends did to be problematic, u can ask me .... its a lot(●￣(ｴ)￣●)
