i think i'll die

just got rejected from another thing i applied for

if this is how life is gonna be, i don't wanna do it. what's the point dude? i have to get into college but i dont even know how to apply, the job markets shit as is (so imagine how it'll be when i'm ready), and the cost of living is way beyond my pay grade.

i know i'm young and getting rejected from something now builds character but i don't really care. i want to make people proud but i'm a mediocre bitch that just wants to read and write. but not one understands rhat i feel like shit because i'm number one in my grade. its not like i can even do wjatever i want anyways since my parents are broke as shit and they came here for me anyways and i feel so guilty that i'm not going to make them happy.

i'm not built for this bum ass lifestyle. take me to italy so i can sleep and eat food all day idgaf

anyways rant over imma kms ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶